One Thousand and Sixty-Five Let Go, I Can't Do It! (Part 3)
When the time was almost up, Shu Nian took her bag, got on the bus, and walked to the examination room.
After what happened yesterday, she didn't even know how she would perform.
On the bus, she chose a window seat. She leaned her head against the window. It was a gloomy day outside, and the window reflected her cheek. She saw that she looked pale and haggard.
At this moment, the phone rang suddenly.
She took it out and saw the word "night" flashing on the screen, which made her eyes a little sore.
She took a deep breath, and after a long time, she connected the phone and put it to her ear.
Over there, there was a long silence.
For a long time, only Ye Yan's breathing could be heard. Some heavy, some tired.
Shu Nian didn't say anything, just held the phone and listened quietly. No matter how calm his face was, his heart was churning, with mixed feelings and all kinds of tastes.
"... Exam today?" Finally, Ye Yan spoke.
Four simple words, very hoarse. It can be heard that he probably didn't sleep much last night. In fact, Ye Yan also sat with his eyes open until dawn.
Shu Nian uttered a "hmm" sound from his nose after a long while.
"Do you want me to take you? I'll go now."
"No need." She tried to make her tone sound calm and indifferent, "I'm already in the car."
"Hmm..." After a short reply, Ye Yan was silent again.
Shu Nian looked out the window, her eyes were sore. Finally, she spoke first: "Then... I'll hang up."
Ye Yan uttered a "hmm" and added: "Take the exam well."
Shu Nian didn't reply again, hung up the phone, sat there in a daze, and didn't come back to his senses for a long time.
They were no longer the same...
Stiff.
Distant.
Probing.
And cautious.
Even if the two could still pretend to talk calmly, they couldn't whitewash the situation. The cracks between them were nowhere to be hidden...
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After several hours of exams, Shu Nian had tried his best. After the exam, he was even more tired. She thought that if she stayed in the examination room for a while longer, she would probably faint directly inside. The great sorrow and pain yesterday had consumed too much of her energy.
After leaving the examination room, as soon as she turned on her phone, Xiong Wanting called immediately.
Shu Nian hesitated for a moment and picked up the phone.
On the other side, before Shu Nian spoke, Xiong Wanting sobbed instead.
Shu Nian pursed his lips and did not speak immediately. He only heard Xiong Wanting choking and saying, "I'm sorry, Shu Nian, I didn't know anything before... If I knew that Hu Yang and the others had bullied you so much, I... I wouldn't have started with him."
Shu Nian's heart fluctuated several times, and the hand holding the phone tightened. After a while, the mood seemed to ease a little, and the hand slowly loosened a little. She pulled her lips and finally said: "It's not your fault."
"If I had known earlier, I shouldn't have brought him here..." Xiong Wanting was still trapped in deep self-blame.
Shu Nian thought, if Hu Yang hadn't come here, everything would be very calm now. Maybe...she and Ye Yan are married now...
But, there is no if.
Just like, there is no regret medicine for what happened back then.
"Don't blame yourself. Really, this matter has nothing to do with you." Shu Nian felt that he was very capable. At this moment, he could even pretend to comfort others in vain.
"Can we meet?" Xiong Wanting stopped sobbing, "Niannian, I am worried about you."
"Come to my house." Shu Nian did not refuse her, and there was no reason to refuse. It is difficult for them to meet now.
"Then I'll come right away!"
"Okay."
Shu Nian hung up the phone and sent the address to Xiong Wanting.
Put away the phone, came out of the teaching building, and followed other classmates to the bus stop to take the bus. The bus she took passed the community where she lived, and she didn't even raise her eyes. When passing Yunting Waterside, her eyes looked uncontrollably at the entrance of the community. What was she looking at? Or, who was she looking for?
The answer couldn't be clearer.
Shu Nian felt that he was very useless.
The bus stopped at the nearest supermarket to the community. The address she gave to Xiong Wanting was also here. After getting off the bus and reaching the supermarket entrance, she saw Xiong Wanting already standing there waiting.
Coincidentally, she also saw Shu Nian at the first time.
The two of them looked at each other, and Xiong Wanting had already run towards her quickly, not caring how high her high heels were.
Shu Nian helped her up, "Go slowly, be careful not to sprain your ankle."
Xiong Wanting's eyes were red, she grabbed Shu Nian's hand, sniffed, "I thought you would ignore me too."
Shu Nian smiled bitterly.
Hu Yang's fault was Hu Yang's fault, why would she take her anger out on her?
"It's been five years, why haven't you changed at all?" Shu Nian took out a tissue from his bag and wiped Xiong Wanting's tears helplessly. She was already 24 years old, but she was still as tearful as before, with a pure heart, and hadn't changed at all. This made Shu Nian envious. This is something only happy people have. Unfortunate people have been tortured to the point where they have little of their original intentions left.
Xiong Wanting sobbed, "I didn't know he was such a jerk before! I was really blind! Fortunately, I have dumped him now!"
"You... broke up?"
"If someone can do such a dirty thing, he can't be a good person. You can't keep him for the New Year!" Xiong Wanting really likes Hu Yang. Now that they have broken up, she is heartbroken. However, "rape" is unforgivable. What's more, the person who "raped" her was her good friend. Even if she didn't expect such an ending at the beginning, it can't cover up the bad consequences they caused.
Some injuries, once formed, cannot be reversed.
Their so-called "just a lesson" method has ruined a girl's half life or even her whole life.
Shu Nian didn't say anything for a long time. In her mind, there has always been the shadow of Ye Yan. She is a victim and an experiencer, but she is not as decisive and resolute as Wanting...
Abandoning a person is such a painful thing...
"Niannian?" Xiong Wanting saw that she was distracted and called her.
Shu Nian came back to her senses and met Xiong Wanting's worried and concerned eyes. She felt very uncomfortable.
"Let's not talk about this..." With a splitting headache, she didn't want to talk about the past anymore. She glanced at the supermarket, "Let's go in and buy some things. I'll cook for you at noon today."
"You can cook now?" Xiong Wanting also tried not to think about the sad things of breaking up. She took Shu Nian's arm, and the two of them were still intimate as before. "When I went to your house before, Aunt Jun was responsible for cooking, and you never did it."
Shu Nian's eyelashes drooped slightly, "My mother... married someone else. After she left, I was the one who cooked."
The first sentence was still obscure.
When it came to the second sentence, as if she wanted to sound more relaxed, her voice was deliberately raised.