Chapter 1021 I Beg You, I Am Very Tired

The smell of tobacco in the room was very choking, and the airtight atmosphere made people feel even more depressed. Mother Zhou frowned. She walked into the room, opened the curtains, and opened the window.

The cold wind of the night blew in, and there was the bright white moonlight outside the window. Mother Zhou turned around and looked at her son with a sad face. She missed Zhou Yao very much in the past. Although he was naughty and unruly at that time, he was full of vigor. and faith, and now although he is alive, he seems to be dead.

"Zhou Yao, let me ask you, what on earth do you want to do? Look at you now, your life is a mess, and Sileng and this family's life will be a mess... If you really have a woman you like outside, if you I’m really interested in Yang Lin. I’ll ask your grandfather to tell Chief Yang tomorrow that you should remarry... This family can’t stand any trouble from you.”

"Mom," Zhou Yao took a puff of his cigarette. He did not raise his head, his male voice was completely mute, "Take back what you said and don't say it again in the future. You know, I will not remarry."

"Since you don't want to remarry, why are you acting like a gangster outside? What's going on between you and Yang Lin? I called you in the hospital, but she answered your phone. She said you were sleeping next to her..."

Zhou Yao frowned, and the cigarette ashes between his fingers fell on his trousers. He didn't flick it with his hands, "Really? Maybe my phone was answered by her, and I have nothing to do with her."

He answered succinctly.

Zhou's mother didn't know what he meant. Her son spoke less and less. In the past four years, he could pick it off with ten fingers every time he returned to the Zhou family's mansion. He closed himself off completely.

He refused to explain clearly what was going on between him and Yang Lin.

But at this time, Zhou's mother discovered that Zhou Yao was a little abnormal. The man's handsome face was sickly red, as if he had a high fever.

Zhou Sileng's illness attracted everyone's attention. Only then did Zhou's mother see that the black shirt and trousers he was wearing were wrinkled, as if he hadn't changed them in a few days. There was also a ring of stubble on his chin. He looked down and out and miserable.

"What's wrong with you?" Zhou's mother stepped forward and touched Zhou Yao's forehead.

Mother Zhou was startled by this touch, "Zhou Yao, why is your forehead so hot? Do you have a high fever too?"

Zhou Yao's whole body was covered in gray. The man's body collapsed, and he no longer looked as handsome as usual. He said calmly, "Well, it rained a little a few days ago..."

The red string around his neck fell off. He searched for it all night. The rain didn't stop at night. He had a high fever the next day. Instead of treating him, he locked himself in the room and waited for Xiao Zhi to come in the afternoon. When the meal was delivered, he was already unconscious on the bed.

He was sent to the infirmary and was given an intravenous drip. Yang Lin was the doctor there. Maybe Yang Lin answered his cell phone while he was being given an intravenous drip. That was probably the case.

He didn't want to answer when his mother asked him about Yang Lin. He was a stranger and he was frank. He felt tired all over, as if his whole body was going to be paralyzed. He didn't want to spend any more mental energy on anyone.

Besides, it doesn't matter if everyone in the world thinks he is famous, he doesn't need to explain, because he no longer has the person he wants to explain to.

Without her, what would the world have to do with him?

Ah.

"Zhou Yao, you can't do this. Your forehead is so hot. I'll call the doctor to come and give you an IV..."

"No, I've taken the medicine. I'll take a nap later and I'll be fine when I wake up."

"How can this be done? If you are sick, you can't delay. I'll call the hospital." Mother Zhou said and walked towards the door.

"Mom!" The man called her from behind, "I beg you, I'm very tired, can you please stop bothering me?"

Zhou's mother hesitated. Zhou Yao was her son. He had never spoken to her in such a tone in the past thirty-two years. His voice was full of weakness and fatigue, but more... vicissitudes of life. and despair.

Mother Zhou's eyes were red. She slowly turned around and came to Zhou Yao. She lowered her eyes and looked at the man's lowered head. She asked in a trembling voice, "Son, what's wrong with you?"

The man blew out a puff of smoke from his mouth and frowned, "I lost the... red rope... she gave me. I searched everywhere, but... I couldn't find it..."

"son…"

"This feels very much like four years ago. Four years ago, I watched her... closing... her eyes in front of me. I wanted to save her, even if it cost me my life, but... I couldn't do anything. I could save her. I can't live with her... and now I have lost the red string she gave me. The time we fell in love was so short that the red string was the only gift she gave me. I have relied on her for the past four years. It is nostalgic, I look at the photos inside again and again because I am afraid that I will forget her beautiful appearance, I am afraid... I will forget that I once loved her, I am afraid... I will forget that I am still alive..."

"But now I really have nothing... My heart has been hollowed out. This world... is so big, but I feel like I am trapped in a maze. I am confused and helpless. I don't know... I can still What can you do..."

"I really miss her very much. Sileng was still young two years ago. When I took Sileng with me, I was thinking that I am not...a person yet. At least she left her son to me, but...Sileng is getting more and more... As I grew older, looking at his eyes, looking at the red rope bell on his wrist, looking at his desire for motherly love day by day, I found that I couldn't accept it, and I was unable to comfort him because of his sadness. Isn’t it my sadness? He needs a mommy and I also need a woman... Looking at Sileng, I feel like my heart is bleeding..."

"I started to escape, I started to spend less time with... Si Leng, I started to look for her shadow in other women... I could give them whatever they wanted, as long as they let me look at them and quietly accompany me for a while..."

"I think this game is very good, I don't think I'm wrong, but..." Zhou Yao threw away the cigarette in his hand, he reached out and touched his empty neck, "I know I was wrong, because... she was angry, she... was punishing me, she even... took back the last thing I had......"

The words that Bai Qi said were still echoing clearly in his ears, she was right, his Zhiyuan didn't want him anymore, his Zhiyuan would not come back!

She was right!

He would live in eternal pain for the rest of his life.

The hot tears in Zhou's mother's eyes came out, Zhou Yao touched his neck like a petrified posture, his eyes stared at an unknown part of the carpet, but Zhou's mother knew that his eyes must be empty.

Mother Zhou took two steps forward, and she stretched out her trembling right hand to touch the man's hard short hair. The only setback her son had ever suffered in his life was the one with Han Hong, and the other one was... Zhiyuan's death.

She knew that Zhiyuan's death had crushed him completely.