Chapter 1510 1510 Bonfire Night Talk
Hugo's words made everyone silent. Although Hugo didn't say it explicitly, they all knew that Hugo was not only talking about himself, but also honored to death.
In the past two years, Glory to the Dead has achieved too much splendor, they enjoy the applause and the lights, they roam in the mad screams and frenzy, their vigor has been sought after by the media and praised by the audience. It was gradually exhausted, so they began to feel empty and began to be unable to meet the status quo. It is undeniable that Hugo's focus on actor work is an important reason for the gap in glory to death, but it is their spiritual emptiness that really makes glory to death start decadent.
So Pedro couldn't hold back his curiosity and completely indulged in poison. In the product; so Alfonso will start to want to expand the territory and use more money to meet the living needs of him and his family; so Neil and Fokin will continue to create, but can't find the direction. Hugo is no exception.
Hollywood is a tiny, tiny circle where it seems like flashes, cheers, and applause can fill all the space, with alcohol and drugs every day. quality and sex. Drunk in love and dreaming of death, maybe one day you can wake up, maybe you will sink forever - such as River Phoenix, such as Macaulay Culkin.
The bonfire in front of him suddenly burst into a burst of sparks, and the night at the top seemed to be ignited, quickly burning into ashes, and then falling in pieces, making Hugo come back to his senses. In fact, Hugo didn't intend to say these things at all. He was not ready to share his thoughts with the members of the band again. He coughed twice, showed a smile, and changed the subject, "Now we are in the Grand Canyon, tomorrow I'm going to watch the sunrise in the morning, the scene must be spectacular, does anyone want to sign up?"
Hugo's words were lightly lit above the bonfire, and then turned into a puff of smoke, which dissipated in the air without causing any waves. This made the smile on Hugo's mouth slowly subside. At this moment, Ah However, Fang Suo said suddenly, "Last summer, my father had a car accident while driving while drunk, crashing four cars."
Alfonso's jerky voice showed a coldness in the burst of sparks, which made people involuntarily fight a cold war. All day today, Alfonso has spoken only a handful of times. To be precise, since Oscar, Alfonso has been like this, and he has never had a deep conversation with the band. So when he spoke without warning at this time, everyone was shocked.
"Is he okay?" Neil asked worriedly.
Alfonso shrugged slightly, "No arms or legs are missing." The understated tone revealed a bit of sadness, and Alfonso looked up at Hugo, "Joe doesn't know, the Gibbs family's situation is not very good. Alright." Then he quickly retracted his gaze and looked back at the bonfire in front of him.
Hugo was still shocked, why Joseph didn't say a word, but after listening to Alfonso's explanation, Hugo could only sigh lightly.
Joseph's younger brother Paul entered the University of Tennessee and successfully joined the university's football team; his youngest sister was also admitted to the University of Tennessee last year, leaving only his parents behind. And last summer, Joseph's brother Peter lost news without warning in the army. For three months, this incident also made the Gibbs family very tormented. Later, it was later confirmed that Peter was only participating in a secret mission. , was temporarily banned from communicating with the outside world, it was just a false alarm. But in those three months, the Gibbs family was really in a mess, and the time Alfonso said should be that time.
"In August, my mother broke her pelvis at work and needed to rest in bed for two months... It was a mess at home during that time." Alfonso never talked about his family, Hugo Most of what is known is from Joseph.
Alfonso is a Spaniard and has a huge family. There are seven members of his own family - five siblings including him, and his uncles, uncles and other families are also united. Their family is more complicated than Joseph's - although Joseph is half Hispanic, their family has been in the United States for more than three generations, so the whole family is relatively simple.
Although Joseph did not talk about the situation of the Alfonso family in detail, in fact, Hugo and the others knew that most of the Hispanics in Texas joined gangs, such as Joseph's brother Peter. All are illegal activities, smuggling arms and drugs. Quality, population, etc... Imagine how much courage Alfonso took when he gave up his music dream, fled Houston, and came to Los Angeles to become a car dealership.
Therefore, during that time last year, the family suddenly flooded with a lot of mess, and the pressure on Alfonso can be said to be unimaginable.
"And my brother, he..." Having said this, Alfonso waved his hand, as if he wanted to put aside the past, "But anyway, I needed money during that time, so I started doing business again. , I bought a house in San Diego because I needed to take my younger siblings over and they had to leave Houston. I wanted my mother to go too, but she didn't want to..."
Alfonso's speech is fragmented and fragmented, and there is not even much useful information, but he can feel his hardship. "But these are just excuses, the real reason is because I'm jealous, I'm jealous of Hugo's success, and I want to get more attention, I'm not willing to be just the keyboard player and guitar player in the band, but I forgot... how difficult it is."
Alfonso's words stopped involuntarily, and he didn't know how to organize his language. After Oscar's night, there were always countless thoughts rolling in his mind, Hugo's words, Henry's words, Pedro's words... He thought a lot, and all the past events came to his mind bit by bit, which made that The head, overheated with jealousy, cooled.
However, the more he understood the cause and effect of the incident, the more guilty and ashamed Alfonso became, and the more unable he was to speak. He even felt that it was a luxury to ask for forgiveness from his teammates. He didn't know how to express his thoughts, and he didn't know what the future of the band would be like, but the truth was, he was lost.
"My buddy, I'm sorry." Alfonso, who was usually eloquent, was at a loss for words at this time. He could only look at his teammates and whispered, this simple sorry but hidden countless heavy and complicated words. emotion. This time, Alfonso didn't dodge any more, but looked at his teammates intently, and finally met Hugo's gaze and looked at Hugo calmly.
After a long time, Alfonso turned his head away, looked at Pedro, and said in a hoarse voice, "I'm really sorry." Maybe he was really too selfish, and he never noticed Pedro. Luo's anomalies -- or, he had already discovered Pedro's anomalies, but he was so focused on enjoying the attention and jealous of Hugo that he was reluctant to explore these anomalies.
Looking at Pedro's clear eyes, Alfonso lowered his head in shame, and the confusion and bitterness of his tongue almost drowned him.
Pedro twitched the corners of his mouth gently, "Alfonso, you didn't forgive me, Hugo, Neil, Fokine, you all didn't forgive me, from beginning to end, every choice was made by me... …”
"Pepe!" Neil interrupted Pedro aloud, and Pedro had just quit his abstinence today. Coming out of the drugstore, he wasn't sure if Pedro's mind was strong enough to be healthy enough to take on such a thorny issue.
Pedro shook his head, "I know, Hugo said that day, these are my choices, I have my freedom, my rights, this is a fact. But Hugo, we are friends, Isn't it?" Pedro looked straight at Hugo, his eyes were a light red against the backdrop of the bonfire, and there was a layer of water mist rolling inside.
Pedro used the word "friend", not "teammate". This made Hugo's heart astringent, and all the suppressed emotions rolled up. He wanted to open his mouth to say "yes", but he couldn't say anything when the words came to his mouth. Hugo avoided his eyes in embarrassment.
He can't help it, he can't help it after all, maybe he is a coward. After trust has been betrayed again and again, he begins to fear and shrink back.
Hugo's gentle dodge made Pedro's mouth full of bitterness. He knew that the trust between him and Hugo was broken after all. Hugo used to persuade him to stay away from poison every time. At the time of tasting, he just felt irritable, why did Hugo teach him, and what qualifications does Hugo have to control him; but now, he really knows that it is called caring, that is caring, and it is also called trust.
"I know I made stupid choices, and I know I'm starting to get lost in the spotlight and screaming, and for a long time, I'll even wake up in the rubbish heap with no recollection of what happened last night. ." Pedro inserted his hands into his hair, clutching his hair in pain, "So I need you, I need friends to stand by my side, tell me the way forward, tell me the motivation to persevere. Rain Guo, do you remember?"
Pedro's voice was like a wounded little beast, whimpering between his knees, "'Born Helena-Jenny, with a weary soul, traveled west to California to become a magazine cover girl . But as soon as you change the name, the pieces of the soul go away, and now she can barely recognize herself.'" This is the opening lyric of "Hollywood's. Not. America."
Then suddenly Pedro raised his head, passed through the raging flame, and looked at Hugo, who was gradually blurring in the dark night, "I couldn't really understand the meaning of the lyrics at first, but now, I can't recognize myself either. already."