Chapter 1203. Sinful
Yun Dai lay with her eyes closed and said, "Bao Xing, please keep an eye on Yan'er and Qian'er for me. Don't let them be greedy for moon cakes. They are still young, and eating too many sweets is not good."
"Your Majesty, rest in peace, I know that." Baoxing said in a low voice.
Yun Dai lay on her side and glanced at him through the curtain.
"Baoxing, how long has it been since you went home?"
"It's been several years." Bao Xing whispered, "After I entered the palace, I never went back. I don't want to go back either."
A good man, who is already at the age of marriage, suddenly goes to the palace and becomes a eunuch. What will he do when he goes back? It's all for nothing, just making people laugh and being looked down upon.
Yun Dai closed her eyes and whispered: "Actually, I have always wanted to ask you, why are you so determined not to leave the palace with Guo Ning? If you had followed her, Yu Zhu would not have lost his life in vain."
When Baoxing heard this, his heart ached, and he lowered his head and said, "I know that the empress is angry with me. I know that my sin is serious and I will never be able to repay Yuzhu in this life."
"Because you have grudges against Guo Ning, so you don't want to go with her?"
"No, it's not." Bao Xing shook his head, "When I first entered the palace, I was physically and mentally traumatized, and I was completely discouraged. There must be resentment in my heart. But as time went by, it faded away. After all, Concubine Ning did not do this on purpose. Yes. Now that I have entered the palace and become a eunuch, I never want to leave in this life."
"Why?"
"What would I do if I went out like this? In the palace, there are many people of the same kind around me. Madam, you also treat the master as a human being. If you go out, who will treat a person like this slave as a human being?"
"Guo Ning always treats you differently."
"She is just a pampered young lady. In the past, she had no worries about food and clothing at home. After entering the palace, she also had fine clothes and fine food, and the master took care of her. How could she understand the sufferings of the world. If someone like this slave goes out with her, for a day or two, Maybe it's nothing. As time goes by, life becomes unsatisfactory, and conflicts and resentments inevitably arise. Why should I let her resent the slave for the rest of her life?"
Baoxing's voice was low and without any fluctuation, as if he was talking about someone else's business.
"Besides, this slave is just a useless person and cannot bear the responsibility of taking care of her for the rest of her life." He added.
Yun Dai was silent for a long time.
Now Guo Ning lives in a place like Ganquan Temple, and I don't know if she has tasted the suffering of the world.
"Today is the Mid-Autumn Festival, the day of reunion. If you miss your family, I allow you to go back to visit them."
"I don't want to go back," Bao Xing said. "From now on, I don't want to do anything. I just want to serve the Queen with peace of mind, along with Yuzhu's share."
Thinking of Yuzhu, Yun Dai also burst into tears.
She said: "Yuzhu loves sweets and drinks. You can bring some wine and moon cakes back later to offer sacrifices to her."
"Thank you, Your Majesty, for remembering me." Bao Xing knelt down and thanked him, "Your Majesty, please sleep for a while and don't bother yourself. There are servants in Fengyi Palace, so nothing can go wrong."
"Go ahead and remember, don't tell anyone about the emperor's antidote."
"My queen works so hard, why don't you let the emperor know about it?" Bao Xing was puzzled and felt sorry for her.
Yun Dai smiled and said: "It's not that I don't want him to know. He's so sick now, so why put an extra burden on him. Let's wait until he gets better."
Baoxing thought about it and realized the same thing.
"Then go and tell Liu Dequan, so that he won't let the emperor know about it."
"Go ahead."
Yun Dai turned over and faced the wall, closing her eyes and falling asleep.
When she woke up, it was already a bright moon outside.