Chapter 4990 I Won’t Go Back

When Yun Dai returned to the dormitory, Ji Tangtang was lying on the deck chair on the balcony.

She wore a pure white cotton nightgown that reached to her ankles, wrapping her thin body. The long black hair was messy, sloping down like a waterfall, almost hanging to the ground.

She lay flat on her back, motionless.

There was only a small night light in the dormitory, emitting a dim light.

Yun Dai thought she was asleep, so she walked over lightly, but found that she was not asleep.

She opened her eyes and stared at the dark blue sky without blinking.

The night sky in early autumn is clear and bright, and the distant stars are shining faintly.

Ji Tangtang looked at the sky quietly, with no focus in his eyes. He seemed to be looking in front of him, but also seemed to be looking far away.

Yun Dai knelt down next to her and said softly: "Tangtang, you're going to catch a cold lying down like this. Go back to the house."

Ji Tangtang hummed, and after a long while, he slowly sat up.

Seeing the worry in Yun Dai's eyes, she slowly smiled and said, "Actually, I suddenly realized that it would be good to stay here."

"Aren't you feeling uncomfortable?"

"It's uncomfortable. But maybe I can try to ignore any feeling in my body." Ji Tangtang's voice was light and low, like a whisper, "I kept looking at the sky just now, as if my soul had flown out and stayed away from my body. .At that moment, I didn’t seem to feel any pain anymore.”

Yun Dai's eyes were sore: "Tangtang, it's all my fault. It was me who hurt you."

Ji Tangtang looked at her blankly and said softly: "Sister Yun."

"Why."

"Sister Yun, are you back?"

"..." Yun Dai didn't know what to say.

If she doesn't have those memories, she is not her sister Yun at all.

Damn it, why can't she remember?

"Sister Yun," Ji Tangtang spoke again, "Actually, I thought you were going to jump into the sea and commit suicide. Since I followed you, I wanted to die with you. I didn't expect that you were gone, but I didn't die. I Think, this is your punishment for me."

"What?" Yun Dai looked up blankly.

"You don't want anyone to know where you are going, but I am disobedient and insist on following you. You are angry, aren't you?"

"Tangtang, she... won't blame you. She will feel very guilty for causing you to do this. Originally, you could live a happy and comfortable life in Beiqi and Han Yu, but now..."

"Han Yu?" Ji Tangtang was startled for a moment, then shook his head, "No, I don't love him, not at all."

"But Zhao Yuanjing said that you are getting married..."

"Does love have to be in order to get married? But at that time, I felt that I should experience the feeling of getting married. Later, I didn't want to be someone's wife anymore, so naturally I left."

"Ah... Han Yu is a bit pitiful."

"He is an eminent monk who sees things openly and will not be sad." Ji Tangtang's eyes gradually returned to clarity, and his babble became clearer and normal.

She stood up, went back to her bed in the house, lay down, pulled up the quilt and covered her up, and said, "Sister Yun, I figured it out."

"Figured out what?"

"I'm not going back."

"Why?"

"If I want to go back, I will force you to recover your memory. I shouldn't do this, it's too selfish." Ji Tangtang revealed a pale and thin face from the quilt, "Now that I'm here, I want to have a good relationship with Sister Yun Together."

"But your body..."

"It doesn't matter." Ji Tangtang closed her eyes, "Let it last as long as it lasts."