Chapter 228 Live for Yourself, Crushed Iron Ore
"Brother, there is still one minute to count down."
Lu Mingze appeared in front of Lu Mingfei holding a strawberry cone.
Taking a deep breath, Lu Mingfei held Lu Mingze's shoulders with both hands: "For a quarter of my life, I want to cancel my wish..."
"No, brother, this is the peak you need to climb to grow." Lu Mingze finished the cone and looked at Lu Mingfei with some regret.
"Countdown, um, fifty-four seconds."
Hearing this, Lu Mingfei paced back and forth, with anger, confusion, and fear in his eyes.
Above the deep sea, I kept fluttering my hands and feet, feeling the cold and biting water touching my skin, and learned to struggle to avoid drowning in the deep sea.
Lu Mingfei just wants to raise his middle finger to the system, and then let it go away and harm others, preferably social harm like Zhao Menghua.
To grow, there must be a price.
"Brother, I believe you can overcome all this."
Lu Mingze took the last bite of the cone.
time up.
Before Lu Mingfei realized what was happening, he was standing on the familiar Mirror Lake.
"Jie Jie Jie Jie, you wretch, are you ready for real training?" 』
"Huh..." Lu Mingfei clenched his fists and thought about his struggle over and over again. He seemed to be trying his best and shouted: "You ■■■"
Within 12 hours, Lu Mingfei's Key Dao cultivation level broke through from the key person to the key king realm. If it were placed in Zu'an District, perhaps only a thousand-year-old demon could compete with him.
"The deep sea contains everything"
When the system sound ended, Lu Mingfei felt seawater pouring into his throat and nostrils. He wanted to shout, but was choked by seawater instead.
He struggled with all his strength, but there was only darkness in front of him, all-encompassing darkness.
"I...gu...gugu."
"One minute and two seconds, continue"
"I...um...gu..."
"One minute and seventeen seconds, continue"
There was a change this time. Lu Mingfei realized in his death that verbal abuse was useless.
He stopped shouting and wanted to die, waved his arms with all his strength, and swam towards the light he saw.
A miracle seemed to happen, and the light in front of me became clearer and clearer.
Thirty-seven seconds later, the light disappeared.
Lu Mingfei died of drowning.
"In thirty-seven seconds, you have accepted all this and begun to learn to change. This is good, because you no longer want to continue to rot and want to live."
"I originally thought that after dying fifty times, you would realize that you had to struggle to stay alive."
"Wish you and your whole family death!"
Lu Mingfei sent out friendly blessings and was once again thrown into the deep sea by foam.
"continue"
Death occurred again and again. Lu Mingfei tried his best to swim from the deep sea to the light.
But there are no miracles in this world. He can only watch himself getting closer and closer to the hope of escaping from the deep sea, and then he is swallowed up by the darkness, dragged into the abyss, and enjoys the pain of despair in the endless deep sea.
Repeat, keep repeating, in Jinghu Lake - the deep sea, Lu Mingfei is living a two-point and one-line life.
"The one hundred and forty-seventh time, collapsed"
Bai Mo looked at the collapsed Lu Mingfei. The repetition of death was terrifying, and he was still immersed in sea water in the deep sea.
In the oppressive deep sea, Lu Mingfei could only feel the flow of sea water and hear his own breathing.
For ordinary people, this is a kind of punishment. Before dying, Lu Mingfei could only think crazily and recall his life.
Tears flowed out, the face was ferocious, the energy wasted in dancing, the crazy self-abasement...
After Lu Mingfei collapsed, he forgot how to swim and sank into the darkness at a faster speed. He even gave up thinking and rushed toward death.
"After a mental breakdown, the next step is self-forging." Bai Mo ignored Lu Mingfei's struggle and continued to repeat the action.
Human will is like a piece of iron ore, which needs to be crushed, sintered, melted, melted repeatedly, the magazines removed, and finally shaped into shape.
Lu Mingfei's piece of iron ore is extremely hard and cannot be easily crushed.
Even if he was given the power and plug-ins of an S-class hybrid, Lu Mingfei was still a loser, talking nonsense.
"The deep sea can give you salvation"
Repeating the foaming in the deep sea, drowning in the deep sea, shattered the stupidity in his mind.
How many times?
Lu Mingfei didn't know the answer.
Repeating death again and again, he rigidly remembered one idea, an idea that kept repeating in his heart - kill the system.
Kill it, kill it. Kill it!
I shouldn't kill, I should be patient, I should retreat... The world in front of Lu Mingfei gradually blurred, and he saw another self.
"I" was wearing the uniform of Shilan High School, huddled in the corner, hunched over, and in two different worlds from the classmates in the class.
"Myself" listens to my classmates talking about famous brands, chatting about where they have recently traveled, and where they should go to a party abroad.
It's like a pheasant wandering into a group of swans. Everyone is lively and youthful, but you are the only one who seems "mature" and very out of place.
"Hello, classmate." Chen Wenwen walked up to her and asked "himself": "Do you want to join the literary club?"
Is this my meeting with Chen Wenwen?
Lu Mingfei seemed to understand why he liked her.
A person who has been suppressed by his family since childhood, just like Harry in Harry Potter, accepted the cold violence from his aunt, the neglect from his uncle, and the ridicule from his cousin...
Children's words are innocent, a nice phrase. For Lu Mingze, it may just be a casual remark he made with Lu Mingfei when he was a child.
——Where are your parents?
——You live in our house and eat and drink for free.
——You are useless.
Lu Mingze did not have many bullying words. After all, they have lived together for more than ten years, and they have feelings for each other.
But for the bad kid, left-behind children, domestic violence, environmental oppression, etc. have formed a solid shell, and the shackles on his body have suppressed his original intention.
Children's psychology is fragile and should be protected.
Hahaha, hahaha, hahaha...
Lu Mingfei wanted to laugh. He suddenly felt that he could laugh out loud and understood everything.
What else is meaningful?
Everything is meaningless.
In the dark deep sea, Lu Mingfei, who was constantly sinking, raised his head and looked up at the light outside the deep sea at the boundary between light and darkness.
Nothing is meaningful. The so-called "like" is only a pure ordinary person after stripping away the personal psychological subjective thoughts.
Chen Wenwen is just an ordinary person, ordinary, no different from those high school girls I met.
The so-called feeling of love is nothing but a brain-dead state after lack of love.
Do I really like Chen Wenwen?
No, what I like is the light that she reaches out to grab herself when she is powerless.
Self-hypnosis, self-comfort, I tell myself again and again in my heart that she is an angel.
But in fact, she is just an ordinary girl, an ordinary literary girl who likes Zhao Menghua, ordinary and common. That is, she is not as beautiful as mixed-bloods, nor does she have the aristocratic temperament of those people.
『246th time, continue』
Once again thrown into the deep sea, Lu Mingfei calmly felt the water flow across his skin.
In the quiet deep sea, he focused on thinking about himself and thinking about what he should do.
If it were the real world, Lu Mingfei would have spoken nonsense without thinking, and would please others like a clown through funny, self-deprecating, and sarcastic ways to attract the attention of others on the stage.
But in the deep sea, Lu Mingfei does not need to think about these meaningless things.
I want to live...
Thinking this way, he began to struggle.
There is no need to consider others, no need to consider for others, whether what he does will cause any consequences.
Lu Mingfei acts purely for himself.