Chapter 433 Let Me Die! !

The blood-red lightning was hidden in the thick dark clouds, and only occasionally a little lightning was revealed as the clouds broke. Even so, the world is still a blood-colored world, and the red moon faithfully reflects all the light that shines on it, even if the lightning that emits this light may protect it for more than four billion years at any time. It doesn't matter if the world is completely destroyed longer.

It just doesn't matter.

What if the world is destroyed? After destruction, there will naturally be a new reincarnation, and what it has to do is just to leave a proof of its existence as a bystander for this world that is destined to be destroyed.

Of course, what if there is no reincarnation? Even if the entire earth falls apart, as a satellite of the earth, it will naturally not be spared, but so what?

It has no desires, because it has nothing that it must do. As long as it has no reason to exist, there is no need to destroy it.

Even if...even if it really had a reason to exist, more than four billion plus tens of billions of fifty thousand years would be enough to erase that reason.

It may have been confused for a time because that reason no longer existed, and what followed the confusion may be anger that wanted to be destroyed immediately...

Until time completely erased all emotions, along with confusion and anger, then there was the moon now, which obviously still exists, but is no different from a dead thing, or even equivalent to a "corpse".

"Human beings are really amazing creatures. They are obviously a pile of scrap metal. Taken apart alone, they cannot even kill a person, but when put together, tsk!"

The voice in her mind kept chattering, but Mei Yi ignored it. She just stared blankly at the big black hole in front of her and swallowed hard.

It was indeed just a black hole the size of a bean, probably not as big as Mei's eyes, but when Mei stared at it, it was as if she was staring into a bottomless abyss that filled her entire field of vision.

Because she clearly knew that it was such a big black hole, and she only needed to gently pull the trigger...

Before the flames from the muzzle could even reach her eyes and be transmitted to her brain through her nerves, she was already dead.

"Tsk, tsk, tsk! I can't control your body right now. If you want to kill me, this is indeed your best chance."

"Do you think I don't dare?"

Meiyi gritted her teeth and growled, and then imitated what she saw on TV, tremblingly putting the muzzle of the gun to her temple.

"Tsk! Stop joking. If you really want to die that much, then I suggest you put the muzzle of the gun into your mouth and kill yourself with a bullet. Do you know what suicide is? Your wrist strength is not enough for actions like yours. You don’t know how to hold a gun, and the muzzle rises when you pull the trigger... Tsk! Crybaby, you don’t want to lose half of your head by a bullet, do you?”

Mei Yi's face turned pale when she said that, and the hand holding the gun trembled more and more violently, especially the index finger on the trigger, which twitched back and forth like a cramp. It was not impossible to accidentally press the trigger.

Meiyi naturally knew this, and she held on for about three seconds, and finally pulled her twitching index finger out of the trigger guard without leaving a trace.

But soon she realized that every movement she made, no matter how small, no matter how hard she tried to hide it, was in vain in front of the owner of the voice in her mind. Who made them share the same body now?

In other words, at this moment, her cowardice in the face of a gun and death, and her crazy obsession to live, were completely transparent to the voice in her head.

But what's more, it's probably hate...

He hated her for using her own body to point the gun at Kiana, and hated her for using her own body to kill her "mother" with her own hands.

But no matter what, the person she hates the most is herself, Raiden Mei.

She couldn't understand, wasn't it death? What's there to be afraid of?

Isn’t that just living? What is there to love in this world?

Why did she muster up the courage to walk to the door of death countless times? As long as she takes one more step forward, no, half a step, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, only need to lean forward slightly, all the sadness, anger, and unwillingness will disappear, and she will never be hurt again. to anyone.

But why can't it be done?

Why do you just want to live in vain?

The irreversible tragedy eventually happened. If she had cared about her life before that, Mei Yi would still have reasons to excuse herself. But after that, he still couldn't make up his mind to die...

Why don't you die? Why don't you die! Why can’t I make up my mind to die? Why do you just lack the courage to die?

What if she continues to live like she is now? So what? So what?

If you continue to hurt the people around you, from countless unrelated people to Mebius, what’s next? Is it Xi'er? Is it Bronya? Or Kiana?

Even Mikael?

ah……

How will she face Mikael? He has done so much for her, he should have saved her father by now. But she...she, Raiden Mei, killed his...

How much of a waste, shameless, despicable and selfish is this Leiden Meiyi, and still has the honor to live, and the honor to want to live?

Why is she still breathing?

Even if she selfishly doesn’t want to die, what about God? How could someone like her deserve divine punishment?

Why couldn't a thunderbolt fall from the sky and kill her? ?

No... I can't live like this... selfishly...

"Oh, I just used your hands to kill someone. As for hating me like this, do you also hate yourself, you crybaby?"

"It's just...what does it mean to just be? What does it mean to just kill someone?"

Mei Yi spoke word by word, using up all her strength on every word, so that ugly meridians rose up on her forehead.

It’s ugly as long as it’s ugly, no one will see it again.

"What's your attitude? Oh! Don't make any mistake, that woman came to kill you, and by doing this I saved your life. Shouldn't you thank me?"

"No! She's not!"

Meiyi held her head and roared loudly, but as soon as her voice came out, it was blown everywhere by the night wind, leaving only a trace of echo lingering around in the cold and dead buildings.

"If she really wanted to kill me, she could have done it when I was unconscious... She didn't want to kill me at all! She didn't want to kill me at all!! And... shouldn't I kill..."

"Oh--"

The Lawyer snorted lightly, neither denying nor defending.

She is even less likely to admit her mistakes because she is not wrong at all.

At that moment, she truly felt the undisguised murderous intent from Mebius' stretched out hand - even though it was only an imperceptible moment, she knew that the woman in front of her was really capable of killing her. Not only for myself now, I am afraid that even if I really fully grasp the power in the Conquering Stone, it will not be enough.

Even when she was killed by him so easily, "The Herrscher" thought it was too darkly humorous, but her heart that was torn out could not be faked.

Naturally, she couldn't tell Mei Yi these things. With the young lady's naivety and preconceived prejudices, even if the "lawyer" said something bad, it would be impossible for her to believe her.

More importantly - a human being who has murderous intentions towards her and truly has the ability to kill herself, she can just kill her, so why bother explaining to this crybaby?

"Haha, you have to live or die every day, Raiden Meiyi, you only have so much ability. Oh, you are still a coward, you keep saying you deserve to die, and you keep begging others to kill you... Hahaha, what kind of coward, you can't even kill you I don’t even have the courage Yes, you can only ask others to kill you hahaha... Well, let me tell you, one of the reasons why you resent me for killing your mother Mebius is that you feel sorry for yourself for not being able to die. Isn’t it a pity that it’s in her hands? This is too ridiculous!”

"Ahhh! Shut up!"

The heat radiating from the bottom of her heart gradually turned from warm to scorching, constantly impacting the fragile and slender brain nerves. Until there was a "boom", Meiyi clearly felt something in her mind breaking, and then the wave almost broke. The burning heat that burned the entire brain rushed in.

Her vision became blurred, and tears covered her cheeks at some point. His brain was too groggy to issue any instructions, but his body jumped up from the ground.

The world in her sight began to spin, and she stumbled to the ground with her head heavy, but her body suddenly held her breath.

No, not only breathing, tears no longer flow outwards, hands and feet no longer twitch, even the surrounding wind and the faint sound of thunderstorms in the sky have disappeared, leaving only one or two gentle sounds in my ears. sobbing.

Have you calmed down?

Or are you forced to accept everything this terrible reality has in store for you?

None.

The next moment, she clenched her right fist tightly and hit it heavily on the floor of the rooftop.

"Bang--"

The collision of flesh and cement produced nothing more than a soft, feeble sound.

"Ho!"

"Bang--"

"snort!"

"Bang--"

"Uh-huh!"

"Bang-bang-"

"Ahhhhh——"

"Bang! Bang! Bang! Bang! Bang!"

Nervous screams and bloody collisions sounded again and again, and the Herrscher in the conscious world couldn't help but frown. Although the pain didn't matter to her, this was after all...

This is her body after all...

"Okay, you..."

She had just said half a sentence when Mei Yi's screams stopped, leaving almost a puddle of flesh. You could still faintly see the broken bone residue on her right hand, which was like a hammer. Throwing it to the ground.

After shaking it twice more, even the hand stopped moving.

"Ho...ho...ho..."

Meiyi's cheeks rubbed against the rough concrete floor. She probably had too much air coming out and too little air coming in. In addition, her tears blocked her respiratory tract, and her whole body twitched due to lack of oxygen.

The first thing to feel the coldness and numbness was the chest. Every alveoli was trying hard to shrink itself inward, squeezing out the little remaining air from the body. After one mouthful, there was another, and every movement of inhaling was interrupted by exhalation. After about ten seconds, the numbness gradually spread from the trunk to the limbs.

At first, the limbs would twitch symbolically twice, but the twitching soon stopped.

Her eyelids closed heavily, but what greeted her was not darkness. After the last ray of light was swallowed up, what greeted her was blood red.

"Oh!"

The consciousness of "The Herrscher" let out a contemptuous sneer.

That's it?

"She thought she could die like this? She was so naive."

Yeah, so naive.

"Ho!"

A few minutes later, Mei sat up straight. The pain in the wound on her right hand had been temporarily stopped by norepinephrine and other neurotransmitters. At the moment, she just felt confused - was she dead?

Probably dead? So this is the world after death? Is it no different from reality? Or is he just floating here as a soul at this moment?

The voice in her head quickly broke her delusion:

"You are really...unfortunate. There are many ways to kill a being like you. Unfortunately, suffocation is not included."

The Herrscher's body structure seems to be the same as that of others. Of course, piercing the heart and cutting off the head can kill a Herrscher, but after all, the Herrscher is a special species that only needs Honkai energy to survive, and it has the ability to survive in a vacuum. The ability to survive will naturally not die due to temporary suffocation.

"That's enough, okay? Are you satisfied now? How do you feel about death? If you've had enough fun and trouble, just give your body to me."

"..."

"Come again? Haha!"

Seeing Mei Yi's confused look, "The Herrscher" felt annoyed for no reason.

"Since you insist on this, let me tell you another secret. Do you know why I was able to take over your body before? Hahaha, wasn't it because you, a fool, took the initiative to hand over control of your body to me before? Well, So please give yourself more of your hatred. It is precisely because of your own incompetence that you need to use my power, which gives me an opportunity, isn't it?"

After listening to "The Herrscher"'s words, Mei Yi stood up with empty eyes.

The neurotransmitters secreted in her brain were getting less and less, and the pain in her right hand was becoming clearer and clearer, but she didn't care anymore.

She leaned over and picked up the pistol on the ground, and just like the Herrscher taught her, she put the barrel into her mouth.

"Ha! You look a little braver than before, but are you sure you want to do this? Are you ready to face death?"

Meiyi didn't give any response.

At first, her left hand holding the gun was still shaking a little, and the smell of oil in the barrel made her want to vomit.

But gradually, as the wind picked up her long purple hair little by little, she raised her head, and the red moon floated above her head quietly, silently.

Then her heart and body calmed down at the same time. Only the index finger of her left hand exerted slight pressure, and the oppressive trigger moved backward.

"Clang-"

"Bang!"

The sound of gunshots and the sound of the iron door being kicked open rang out at the same time. Meiyi stared blankly at the still smoking muzzle of the gun in her hand, and a nameless anger once again overwhelmed all reason in her mind.

The moment the iron door was kicked open, her body trembled, the muzzle of the gun slipped out of her mouth, and pointed at the sky because of the posture of her left hand.

In the end, the bullet that was supposed to take her life flew past her forehead, taking away only a handful of bangs on her forehead.

Why?

Once, twice... it happens again and again!

"Why can't you just let me die! Why!!!"

Mei slapped the pistol on the ground. She finally plucked up the courage to shoot herself, but she failed again by mistake.

But one thing can't be the other, so she doesn't have the courage to shoot herself anymore.

But it doesn't matter, she still has the last method, she still has the last way to die that she has reserved for herself from the beginning...

Looking at the white-haired girl who rushed towards her shouting her name, Mei Yi showed a slight smile, then turned around resolutely and stepped up the steps of the rooftop with her right foot.

"Mei, no!"

"Farewell, Kiana..."

Meiyi opened and closed her lips gently, making almost no sound.

Of course, it was impossible for Kiana to hear or see the movements of her lips, but... that's fine.

She held onto the iron railing with her left hand and did not hesitate again because she had already closed her eyes.

The sense of loss of control caused by closing her eyes made her unconsciously lean forward, and then her whole body turned over and fell towards the ground dozens of floors below.