Chapter 156 I Am Not a Hero

Lin En felt a sense of frustration like a hot girl flirting with a blind man.

His female boss had no intention of discussing with him. Based on the principle of trusting and reusing, Ye Funi was too lazy to listen to the little gentleman's endless talk about those games and possibilities. Well, this is like a girlfriend who doesn't want to hear her boyfriend talk about Gundam puzzles or games when she is unhappy, which are topics that she is not interested in at all.

When he was addicted, Lin En was a little straightforward, but his sharp thinking and insight made him easily react to the fact that the female knight was unhappy.

Lin En put down the documents in his hand and adjusted his sitting posture slightly to make the two closer and more casual. He and Ye Funi had already broken through the safe distance, and the atmosphere of intimate chat between friends would be better.

"Am I confident?"

Hearing Ye Funi say this, Lin En couldn't help but blink his eyes and recall.

"Isn't there?"

Blinking her beautiful sky-blue eyes, the female knight could easily recall the first time they met. Although she was still a prisoner, Lin En could calmly and confidently talk to the extraordinary people of the [Suppression Bureau] and even persuade them. After that, every time Lin En played a key role, he was fearless and high-spirited, as if there was no obstacle he could not overcome.

Indeed, after the threat to his life was gradually eliminated, the confidence in Lin En's bones was highlighted.

He himself did not notice how brilliant he was.

This kind of confidence is a kind of historical overview of the times, the spirit of the citizens of a great country after experiencing humiliation and glory in their own history, and the determination that even in another world, I can be prosperous and advanced in all aspects without embarrassing the earthlings.

It is precisely with the support of these intangible things that the individual named Lin En can maintain his individuality almost independently in the fierce battle of fusion without sinking into assimilation.

Confidence brings courage.

Courage can break the status quo. This era is just a turbulent era. People with courage will soon stand out, not just Lin En.

"I actually envy your confidence. My father once told me that there are a large number of people in this world who have dreams but no talent to realize them. And as his useless daughter, I am this type of person. I don't have your brains, nor Bill's flexibility."

Ye Funi leaned on the sofa, and the armor that she had deliberately worn on her body for a long time had been peeled off. She confided her inner thoughts to the dazzling person she envied. If it weren't for Lin En's accidental knocking on her heart, this strong female knight would never show such a weak attitude.

Without talent, but still working hard, saying in her heart that she could realize her dream one day, but being ruthlessly hit by reality again and again. It has to be said that this is a very bitter and helpless sad thing. The sad thing is that you have to watch the success of others.

This kind of positive and hidden gap, the psychological pressure formed, sometimes makes Ye Funi wake up suddenly in the middle of the night.

Then there is insomnia all night.

It is conceivable that when the young master appeared in front of her and became stronger step by step, Ye Funi's heart was full of mixed feelings.

"I really envy you."

Yefuni's short words seemed to make Lin En see a knight carrying a heavy load and moving forward with difficulty. She knelt in the wild sand with a look of unwillingness.

"Really? On the contrary, I envy you a little, Ye Funi."

Lin En's words were a little surprising.

"You think we are a team, right? You, me and Bill, we each have our own advantages, but also have weaknesses that cannot be ignored. If we break up and fight each other, the enemy can easily eliminate us one by one. But when we combine, with more people behind us, and form a collective, the enemy will not be able to start from our respective weaknesses, and they can only choose to fight hard."

"You haven't said what you envy me for." Ye Funi's beautiful eyes have some color.

"You want to be a hero, and I..."

Lin En's eyes flashed a trace of guilt and struggle. He is not a real warrior.

He saw it, and saw it from the very beginning when he arrived. The teenager who was beaten to death because he couldn't eat bread in the downtown area, the female workers who were malnourished to the point of being deformed and ghost-like, the man who could only lie at home in despair waiting for his family to gradually starve to death because of work-related injuries, the prostitutes who were controlled by gangs and engaged in the flesh trade and smoked opium until their brains were ruined, and more people who struggled hard to make ends meet, with innocent eyes open, they seemed to be asking why they couldn't survive even if they tried hard?

Will not forget, can't forget, can't forget, Lin En has no way to face this suffocating heaviness now.

Can only avoid temporarily, can't be numb forever.

Lin En, whose memory is always clear, can't escape, avoidance can't solve any problems, he can only try to think about finding a feasible way, a way to get out of this world.

Therefore, Lin En's self-awareness is still quite clear. The great man saw it like him, and then remembered it in his heart, and finally changed the world. I saw it myself and kept it in my mind, but I had no idea whether I had the willpower to accomplish the same feat. I could only remember it and then look for the answer.

As for being completely heartless, Lin En can't do it. If he wants to do it, he must not treat the symptoms without addressing the root cause. That is a debt to the historical answer sheet, and the debt must be repaid in the future, and the more this debt accumulates, the more terrifying it will be. Like a certain lighthouse, just because it was vague about the historical answer sheet, even if it was in its heyday for a period of time, the result was an irreconcilable tear between the people of the country, and it could only rely on sucking the blood of the whole world to delay its own decline.

This is also the reason why Lin En and the world are always torn apart.

'If I am brave, this world will inevitably be a river of blood, and long live the collective. If I fail, I will be doomed forever. I will be regarded as a sinner by the enemy class, endure eternal curses, and be nailed to the pillar of shame in history. I ask myself that this achievement and the consequences are too heavy, so heavy that I don’t have the courage to bear it now. I am not a hero but a commoner...'

After the disintegration of the Red Giant, its ideology was directly denied in its entirety. Those combat heroes and martyrs were abused and insulted by the public intellectuals, and history was tampered with and distorted. The heirs who knelt on the corpse of the giant were directly fooled and disabled by the West. It was not until the family was ruined that they woke up, but it was too late.

"Okay, Lin En, don't think about it!"

Yefuni noticed that Lin En's expression was obviously sad and weak. She didn't want to see such a young man, so she quickly grabbed his shoulders and faced him.

"I understand. It is shameful not to dare to bear and face it. I am your captain and I have my own pride. I said, I will share my dream with you!"

The female knight was a little excited, pinching the boy's shoulder painfully.

She almost directly pressed on his body.

"So, no matter what happens, you have to live with your head held high!"