Chapter 1439 Extra: As Long as You Are in the World, I Can Live (1)

I don’t understand what is just right, I just don’t want to let down or be let down. I will never retreat when it’s time to hug, and I will never cry when it’s time to laugh. ——An Yusheng

I have been a very rebellious person since I was a child. Before my brother died for me, I hated him a little.

Or I can’t say ‘a little bit’, I should say I hate it very much.

He seems to have had the aura of a protagonist since he was born, and he directly caught a model of a house during the lottery.

And I... grabbed a knife.

Probably from that day on, the gears of my brother's and my fate took different trajectories.

He was destined to become a brilliant man, and I was destined to achieve nothing.

There were a lot of people in school who sent him love letters, although there were also a lot of them to me.

But he is different from me. He is the perfect student in the eyes of his teacher and the perfect boy in the eyes of his female classmates.

As for me, I'm just handsome and a bit of a ruffian.

I like to hear the sound of the knife cutting the skin, until the moment it cuts into the blood vessel, there is a "ting" pleasure.

It seems that no one in this world can understand me. They all think that I am rebellious, perverse, and arrogant.

Only my brother understands me. He knows that I just want to get the attention of my parents.

Even if you don't pay attention to it, it's good to take another look...

But unfortunately, they never looked at me.

They even let me stay up at night when I was less than ten years old, and they never sent anyone to look for me.

I seemed to be a disgrace to Anjia, a bloodline they didn't want to admit.

until--

It was my brother's death that made them see my existence.

Although, what they said in the first few months was still so ugly.

For example--

"Why don't you die?"

“Why don’t you go to hell instead of your brother!

"What's the point of your life? Go and die!"

"Go to hell, go to hell, at least this way your brother won't be alone."

…

These tearful and decisive words ring in my ears every day and every night. No one knows that I am sadder than each of them.

Because An Liangsheng is the only person in the world who loves me.

The toys I didn’t get, the love I didn’t get.

He used his identity as a brother to fill the gap in my life.

I love everything about him and everything about him.

And his death proves that there is no one who loves me anymore in this world.

At that time, I didn’t even know what the meaning of my life was, but...the words he said to me before he died were imprinted in my mind.

"A Sheng, you have to live...live...live...for me...live."

The name 'Ah Sheng' is the nickname he likes to call me.

At that time, his parents always called me by my first name.

The three words "An Yusheng" have almost become my most annoying rhyme.

But even so, even if there is no hope for me to live in this world, I must live.

For my brother and for another Anliangsheng to live in this world, I will try my best to survive.

And, live well.

In just half a year, I went from being violent and perverse to being gentle and sensible, and my academic performance jumped from the bottom to the top in my class for the whole year.

I have to say, at least in terms of studying, I have a certain genius.

This is just like some people are suitable for running, some people are suitable for swimming, and some people are suitable for musical instruments.

But I am so suitable for learning.