Chapter 1440 Extra: As Long as You Are in the World, I Can Live (2)

My parents probably saw the shadow of my brother in me, and their attitude towards me changed completely.

They no longer said unpleasant words, and even seemed to be asking me for help and caring about my situation at school.

This feeling is wonderful. It's not that I can't feel the warmth at all, but that the warmth comes too late.

Somewhat...hypocritical.

But I...want to accept it.

People who have grown up in darkness for many years long for sunshine even more. As long as it can shine into the dark and moist light in my heart, I want to have it with all my life.

Luo Qingchen was that beam of light.

When I met him, it was already my sixth or seventh year when I changed from a rebellious boy to a gentle boy, probably some years.

My first impression of her was not good, because I always felt that I could see a shadow of myself in her.

I hated myself at that time, because if I hadn't been so bad, my brother wouldn't have died.

But on the other hand, my personality has long been characterized by paranoia. Once I get into trouble with something, I will fight to the end.

As people say, never look back until you hit the wall. I'm probably the kind of person who will keep walking with his own blood even if he hits his head and bleeds.

So I went and waited for her.

The time was the same as the time she waited for me, a full thirty days.

When we met again, she gave me a very different feeling. It felt like she had emerged from a cocoon and turned into a butterfly.

At that moment, I felt that he and I were the same kind of people.

At least, they are the kind of people who transform from 'bad boys' to 'good boys'.

The way we get along with each other is very strange, and we made a bet for the so-called "love test paper".

Who will fall in love with whom first in the days to come!

I always thought that someone like me, who looks gentle but is actually cold and careless, would definitely win.

But what I didn't expect was that I lost completely.

Whenever I see Su Nian talking to her in school, I feel very anxious. It is like burning with desire.

This feeling gradually swallowed up all my reason, making me full of hostility towards the character Su Nian.

The funny thing is, he is far more hostile to me than I am to him. He hates me and everyone in the An family with deep-seated hatred.

But at first I didn't know this kind of hatred, because all my thoughts were on how to make Luo Qingchen fall in love with me.

I worked hard to catch a fever, worked hard to make her worry, and tried hard to keep her by my side.

I found that I seemed to have changed unknowingly. I was no longer the gentle and elegant young man, and no longer looked like my brother.

Instead...a bit like myself.

The original nature of the little devil who had been bound in the body for a long time made Su Nian no longer have a chance.

However, after doing so much, I never thought...about Su Nian's identity.

I never expected that he would join forces with Liang Bingbing to harm her, making me mistakenly think that she had abandoned me.

I'm not afraid of anything in this world, the only thing I'm afraid of is being left behind by her.

In the days that followed, whenever I felt that moment, my heart would twitch unconsciously.

But at that time, it was thousands of times more painful, plus the suffocation in my heart.

I vaguely remember that as I was lying on the operating table, I could only think of one thing: I didn’t want to live without her. I don't want to live at all, let me die...take me away from this kind of pain that is beyond the scope of human endurance.

And just when I felt my body began to become lighter, Xia Qingrou's voice entered my eardrums——

She said: "Brother, brother - Qingchen said she only likes you!"

Only, like, like, me!