Chapter 377: My Mind Is Full of Twists and Turns

It was pitch black outside the window, with only the flickering palace lanterns as the only light of the night.

Nan Xi leaned against the brocade couch, her thoughts were inevitably complicated.

In fact, in terms of emotions, she felt that she had some similarities with the Empress Jinghua in her previous life. The two were almost as rational, rarely out of control, and did not have the temper that many women often had, nor would they deliberately be petty, and jealousy did not exist most of the time.

Or, because Rong Yu had created such a dream for her in advance, she had a preconceived sense of guilt and self-blame for him, so she had come to this relationship with an attitude of making up for it from the beginning, until she really fell in love with Rong Yu, and fell in love with him a little bit, but her attitude towards feelings was already deeply rooted - of course, the main reason was that Rong Yu was too good to her, and spoiled her to the bone, so that she had no chance to be petty at all.

But even so, Nan Xi still clearly realized that she was rational in terms of emotions.

She was so rational that even after she gradually understood the truth and knew that the dream was a man-made "design" rather than that she had really done something to wrong Rong Yu, she could not be anxious or angry, and could even comfort his anxiety, just because she felt sorry for his emotional fragility.

She was so rational that even though she knew that Rong Yu could not forget the former Empress Jinghua, and that the purpose of pushing her to the throne step by step was also because of obsession, she could still understand his difficulties, because his emotional humility made people reluctant to blame him.

She was so rational that even though she knew that the deal between him and the high priest had long put her in a situation where she could not make a choice, and she could only be pushed to the current position like a puppet following the plan they had already arranged step by step, Nan Xi still could not have the slightest resentment.

After reincarnation, because she still retained the memory of her previous life, Rong Huaijin was Rong Yu, and Rong Yu was Rong Huaijin.

Empress Jinghua is the woman he loves so much that he is obsessed with her. No one and nothing in this world can match the position of Empress Jinghua in his heart, and Nanxi is the reincarnation of Empress Jinghua - Rongyu knows this better than anyone else.

So in his heart, Empress Jinghua is Nanxi, and Nanxi is the reincarnation of Empress Jinghua.

They are the same person, and there is no reason to compare.

This is Rongyu's cognition.

So who is the substitute of whom, this itself is not true.

Nanxi has already recognized this, so she will not naively ask Rongyu who he likes? This answer is unsolvable and obvious.

If there is any fault to be investigated, it is that Rongyu should not forcibly break her peace in this life without consulting her, and desperately want to restore her memory of the previous life.

Although Empress Jinghua and Nanxi are the same person, they have different identities, different responsibilities, and different temperaments in their previous and present lives. How can Nanxi really be the Empress Jinghua she once was?

At this time, while Rong Yu was still awake, Nan Xi could even think calmly. Should she follow Rong Yu's wishes and gradually retrieve the memory of Empress Jinghua, or simply live her life as Nan Xi?

Should she let Rong Yu's life leave regrets, or go with the flow and completely untie his knot?

Nan Xi sighed at the moon outside the window.

After reincarnation, she should have abandoned her past memories and started over, but there was a person who was trapped in the past and could not break free. If she insisted on being Nan Xi in this life, did it mean that Rong Yu would never be able to break free from the past in this life?

Nan Xi was a little melancholy for a while as her mind turned over and over.

Sure enough, since ancient times, the emotions of the imperial family were the most exciting, with ups and downs, grievances and entanglements. Now even reincarnation has really happened to her, and even stained with some mythological colors. What else can she not accept?

A cup of tea gradually cooled down, and Rong Yu on the bed had woken up.

It was just that he seemed to have just experienced a big dream. He slowly opened his eyes. His deep pupils did not have the coldness and indifference of the past. Instead, they were filled with nostalgia and daze. He seemed to be immersed in some memories and had not yet gotten out of them. After waking up, he did not move at all. He just lay there quietly, like a still human stone sculpture.

Nan Xi walked to the bed, stared at his unfocused eyes, frowned and said: "Ayu, are you awake?"

Rong Yu suddenly came back to his senses. All his thoughts came back in an instant. His slowly focused eyes fell on the girl sitting in front of the bed. His empty and desolate heart was filled up little by little, and soon became full and satisfied.

Nan Xi reached out to his forehead: "How did you sleep this time?"

Rong Yu was silent for a moment, and slowly raised his body.

"Don't move." Nan Xi frowned, "You are still seriously injured. Just lie there honestly and don't get up."

Rong Yu lay back silently, then looked at her: "Xi'er."

His voice was hoarse and dry, and it sounded a little strange.

"Hmm?" Nan Xi frowned, "Are you thirsty? Do you want some water?"

As she said that, she quickly told Yin Yue to bring a cup of warm water.

Rong Yu tried to stand up again, and Nan Xi wanted to stop him again, but she didn't know what she suddenly thought of, so she slowly swallowed the words of stopping him and took the initiative to support him: "Be careful."

Rong Yu sat on the edge of the bed, and his body was sweating from the pain again, but he looked okay, at least his expression didn't show anything unusual.

Nan Xi was silent for a moment, and said calmly: "Do you want to change clothes?"

Rong Yu nodded.

Nan Xi said: "I'll let Qingyang help you go."

"No." Rong Yu refused, "You go with me."

Nan Xi was embarrassed: "But I don't have much strength. What if you fall down halfway?"

Rong Yu's expression was subtle: "Am I that weak?"

"Now you are injured, isn't it normal to be weak?" Nan Xi raised an eyebrow, "Or do you think you can kill a tiger now?"

While the two were talking, Yin Yue brought water over, first helped Rong Yu rinse his mouth and clean his face, and then handed him the warm water to moisten his throat.

Rong Yu drank a cup of warm water, handed the teacup to Yin Yue, and then slowly stood up with the help of Nan Xi. The man who was extremely strong during the day was now weak and visible to the naked eye.

Although resting for several hours can relieve fatigue, it also makes the relaxed body feel the overwhelming pain, which is so piercing that it seems as if a layer of skin and flesh on the back has been torn off.

Rong Yu couldn't help but purse his thin lips, holding Nan Xi's hand, standing still and waiting for the dizziness caused by the severe pain to pass.

The pain is real, and the weakness is real.

But if there really is a tiger here, he may be able to kill it.

So wrestling is impossible, he just wants her to accompany him.

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Author has something to say:

The "changing clothes" here means going to the toilet, which is a more elegant way of saying it.