Chapter 1048: Distorted Happiness

Xiao Heitan's Observation Diary No. 15...

As usual, I brought Jeluka and Xiao Heitan to work today.

Two sealing magic circles had been quietly placed on Xiao Heitan's body. On the day Carlos and Seattle Kel arrived, their arrival did not disrupt the original plan. That night, when Xiao Heitan was sleeping soundly, I and I Jeluka still hugged her quietly and went to the Mages Guild to seal the magic circle.

Although I have been worried about the side effects of the two sealing magics and what impact they will have on Xiao Heitan, based on observations during this period, this impact is really minimal and almost unnoticeable. Xiao Heitan is originally taciturn and rarely By showing expressions, even if the feelings are suppressed, it is difficult to detect them. As for the physical effects...

Hmm... If Xiao Heitan has gained a little weight after half a month of self-cultivation, his skin is no longer as rough as before, and his thin and lifeless body has gained an extra vitality, this can be considered an impact. , then I very much welcome this side effect.

Of course, this change, in addition to not allowing Xiao Heitan to do those heavy tasks anymore and trying to make her eat well, every night when Xiao Heitan is asleep, I will also secretly use healing techniques to help her warm and nourish her body. If after doing all this, there is still no change in Xiao Heitan, it can only mean that her body has already collapsed and is in a state of irreparable damage.

Fortunately, this was not the case. Seeing Heitan getting healthier day by day, Jeluka and I breathed a sigh of relief, just like seeing a loved one pass through a dangerous period, and we were sincerely happy.

Now, Xiao Heitan, who is sitting in the yard and watching me work intently, looks back. He is wearing a simple dress, and his exposed limbs are still thin, but they are not as skinny as before. If only he could be nourished a few more times, If it's a month, perhaps it can be described with a beautiful word like slender.

The somewhat dark skin no longer looks as dry and rough as it originally was, but exudes a faint luster. It may not be described as smooth and delicate, but it can be seen that Xiao Heitan definitely has this qualification. He should She said that her body was a naturally beautiful embryo, but now it was just slowly returning to its original shape.

The rare long mercury hair is still so eye-catching. It has not been trimmed since they met. After all, the diamond-shaped crystal shard on the forehead is still very conspicuous. Xiao Heitan seems to be very used to it and enjoys that the bangs completely cover half of his face. Live, the feeling of "seeing the world through the cracks".

Overall, Xiao Heitan now feels like a young girl from a civilian family, perhaps malnourished and stunted due to picky eaters or a poor family.

"Idiot, where are you looking? Work hard, don't you hear? The iron block in your hand is crying, crying because you were chosen by the incompetent forger!!"

Without hesitation, Ma Daao hit him on the head. Once this guy got involved with things related to the blacksmith, he would turn into a devil and disown his relatives. Sometimes he would be beaten and scolded even if he blinked his eyes.

Thanks to this, after half a month of hard study, I can now use portable blacksmith tools at any time to barely repair the durability of the most basic equipment. If I return to Rogge Camp, if I am still a *** ***The newcomer can be favored by countless teams based on this alone.

Unfortunately, this is just a if after all. It can only repair basic equipment, and it has no use at all other than installing x.

"Well done, that's it. Be careful. Every mine is alive. You have to imagine that it is your lover!" Ma Dao's voice echoed in the courtyard.

I can't imagine what a strange and terrifying scene it would be to hit your lover with a hammer.

I secretly complained like this, and I continued to beat in a muffled voice. There was nothing I could do, Ma Daao was now the devil incarnate, and it was useless to say anything.

"Little Heitan, watch out, you won't be as useless as dad in the future."

Behind my back, Jeluka's sarcastic voice came over. This guy actually said bad things about me to Xiao Heitan behind his back, trying to destroy my tall image in Xiao Heitan's mind and then replace it. What a despicable elf.

Xiao Heitan looked at his mother, then at his father's back. He opened his tightly squinted eyes a little, shook his head slightly, and responded timidly in a low voice.

"Dad...worked very hard..."

Look, you've seen it, the eyes of the people are sharp, not to mention my little Heitan, Jeluka, if you want to say bad things about me in front of Heitan, we don't have the chance.

Hearing Xiao Heitan's answer, I laughed so hard that I was naturally hit again by Ma Daao's hammer.

Little Heitan is still the same as before, like a timid foraging hamster. Even if a gust of wind blows, he will tighten his neck and look up nervously. His clear and moving voice exudes a sense of warmth in his whispers. A strange magic that makes people unable to help but be fascinated and want to hear more of her voice.

Unfortunately, I don't know whether it is due to the influence of the sealing magic, or whether this personality has been fixed and difficult to change. Silence has become the main theme of Xiao Heitan. She usually doesn't talk much, and mostly shakes her head or nods, but if it is three Without attributes, he would occasionally show a timid and mature smile, and when taking care of the three iron thorn flowers, he would also show an extremely solemn expression.

Therefore, Xiao Heitan's temperament makes us feel as if it is shrouded in a layer of fog, with a hazy sense of mystery and agility. Even though he is extremely close to us, there is still something hidden in his heart that we cannot fathom. Even that smile is like a flower in the mist or the moon in the water, hazy and beautiful, but it seems to break at the slightest touch.

How to describe this feeling? It’s like we’ve entered a very clear route of [Exoteric-ge], but we don’t have a clue as to how to enter the ending route of [Inside-ge]. Could it be that we have to wait until the second episode or reincarnation to trigger the mouth humiliation? ! !

Let's go on like this for now. As long as we can keep Xiao Heitan safe, there's nothing wrong with it even if we just show the ending for the time being.

On the side of the Mage Guild, the Elf Mage and Alliance Mage have not stopped researching. Although these two sealing magic circles only need to be used for a month or two, they will not be of much use after the Pain Worm matter is resolved. The value of further research.

However, the two groups of people who usually disagreed with each other were unanimous at this time. They all said that as a top magic researcher, it would be against his own work ethics not to perfect these two flawed sealing magic circles* **, that is tarnishing one's good reputation, and besides, idleness is idleness.

Really, after listening to what Carlos said, do you think I still believe in the saying that "it hurts to have nothing to do"? If you want to help, just say so. There's nothing to be ashamed of about this kind of thing. Otherwise, this Dark Continent might as well be renamed Tsundere Continent.

In addition, there is news about Carlos and Seattle. Carlos is an honest man and a good man. He knows that his Paladin has the highest resistance, so he took the initiative to search the most nerve-wracking City of Punishment area. At the end of the day, it is said that the harvest is good, and it is estimated that the crystal fragments in the City of God's Punishment will be completely recovered in about a month.

I hope he won't encounter any formidable enemies in the City of God's Punishment, but I guess Carlos would welcome such a powerful enemy without any hesitation, so that he can hone himself and at least catch up with his old sweetheart Anjieli first. Given Er's strength, as long as he's not as perverted as the regenerative medicine Selson, he should still be able to handle it.

Seattlek is in charge of the other side of the River of Fire. The hot lava there is just right for his fanatical temperament. Well, it is said to be so. Anyway, I think he is quite happy with it, as long as there are fights, strong enemies, and drinks. , he would be happy to go wherever he was asked to go. Although he was simple-minded, he had a rare high IQ among savages.

It is worth mentioning that when I first met the two people, I could tell that their strength had improved a lot, at least not at the speed of improvement under normal training. Of course, this was not beyond my expectation.

From the letters sent from Akara from time to time, I have a general understanding of their situation in Rogge Camp and Harrogas. Although I am not as unlucky as me, a quasi-tragedy emperor, who encountered the reborn demon Selson The kind of pervert whose strength is invincible below the power of the world, but it is not as easy as an outing. It is said that domain-level monsters appeared in Rogge Camp and Harrogath. The two of them also went through a lot of hardships to defeat the enemy. This process is extremely thrilling even if it is not a narrow escape.

Of course, on the other hand, the two of them must also know my experience in Kurast, otherwise why would Carlos know at a glance that the sudden appearance of Jeluka is the Twelve Knights and my personal maid.

For top masters in the pseudo-field like Seattle and Carlos who only need a breakthrough opportunity, strong enemies are naturally the best catalysts, so it is natural to improve their strength. Although the old drunkard has said before, two people need at least one person. It takes two or three years to break through to the realm of the field, but I think geniuses can be predicted, even geniuses among geniuses can be predicted, but geniuses favored by God cannot be predicted, and Carlos and Seattle are obviously like this People, so even if the words come from the mouth of an old drunkard, they may not be accurate.

Therefore, the only thing I am confused about now is whether the two people have broken through to the field level. After careful calculation, although it seems that a lot of things happened during this period, it seems that it would take ten or twenty years of container to fill these things. , but in fact, the time that has passed since the last martial arts tournament is only close - less than two years, and the old drunkard's words were said during the martial arts tournament.

Suddenly and inexplicably, I felt a sad sigh that my life in the past two years has been so colorful. Why do I say it is sad? I don't quite understand. Who can answer my question?

Forget it, after returning from this mission, that Seattle guy will definitely be eager to continue training with me. Then we will know how far his strength has improved. As for Carlos's strength, according to the general game settings , his strength should be on par with Seattle, not much higher.

"You guy, you are distracted again!!"

Ma Dao's roar sounded again, and my head was suffering along with it.

It was finally time to rest. Jeluka brought lunch with him. For Ma Dao's sake, this guy must have snickered. This was lunch made by one of the twelve inheritors of the Elf clan and also the intelligence chief. , you can’t just eat whatever you want.

"Come on, little Heitan, come over to Uncle Ma Daao."

Half a month later, he seemed to have accepted the name Ma Daao. As soon as the break came, he immediately turned around and waved kindly to Xiao Heitan who was sitting there.

Don't act suspiciously in front of the other person's father, you bastard! !

Putting down the sweat-stained hammer, I waited for Ma Daao. This guy was very righteous at the beginning, saying that for the sake of the safety of hundreds of thousands of people in the Demon Fortress, he wanted to do evil things to Xiao Heitan. I guess now When this matter was brought up again, besides Jeluka and me, he was the first one to jump out and object.

After careful consideration, I came to a surprising answer, that is, this guy is actually a hidden Lolita control, or a daughter control.

In Xiao Heitan's eyes, Ma Da'ao was a kind uncle, but he was also his father's immediate boss. No matter what considerations he had, he could not refuse Ma Da'o's invitation. He could only sit next to him timidly. Jie and I Luca was sitting opposite, on a small square table, which was quickly filled with the lunch made by Jeluka. The staple food was a large pancake with dipping sauce and some shredded vegetables and pork. Here One-half of it is going to go into Ma Da'ao's belly.

Should we let Xiao Heitan go out to play and make some friends?

Recently, Jeluka and I were discussing this issue, and we sat together to facilitate the discussion.

It is true that for Xiao Heitan, her parents are the most important. Without her parents, she is an orphan, with no one to take care of her, unable to enjoy the warmth of family affection, no one will pay attention to her bullying, and she will suffer from hunger.

However, for happiness, parents are only the most important part, not the only one. Friends of the same age are also an indispensable part. Girls will have close friends of girls, and boys will also have good friends of boys. , this is a truth since ancient times and an irreversible fact.

Therefore, the topic of our communication is that Xiao Heitan has been here for half a month and should be almost used to it. She has accepted this family setting. Should we let her go out for a walk now to see if she can find other components that make up happiness? ?

After discussing it for a full day, this issue was finally settled for the time being. I continued to play the role of a money-making father at Uncle Ma Dao's place, so as to prevent Xiao Heitan from suddenly coming over on a whim when he was playing outside, only to find that yesterday It's still my father's workplace, but now there's a suspicious sign on the door saying "xxx group that makes the world more lively" or "the afterlife front".

By the way, the sign hanging on the door now is "Qingyin Blacksmith Shop" which is not suspicious at all.

On Jeluka's side, she is naturally responsible for protecting Little Heitan. Damn it, if she doesn't transform into a Hell Fighting Bear, she is obviously more powerful and should stay to do these heavy tasks, and will follow... cough cough , No, the task of protecting Xiao Heitan should be left to me.

I despair of this world where men and women are unequal.

As a result, Xiao Heitan's Observation Diary No. 16 became the sentence "All day long today, my empty father was banging the hammer in the blacksmith shop."

Then, it continues until twenty-one days.

"Still hanging out alone?"

At night, while secretly explaining that Xiao Heitan was squatting in the corner, concentrating on taking care of the three iron thorn flowers, Jeluka and I whispered to each other.

"Yes, I didn't seem to have any contact with other people at all, just like this... just hanging around all the time."

Jeluka nodded. In order to make me, an idiot, completely understand, she straightened the bangs on her forehead, squinted her eyes, and made an empty and gloomy look like a ghost. Imagine wandering around the streets with this look. Little Heitan, if you put her in a loose white robe, wouldn't she look like a lonely ghost girl wandering on the road?

"I don't want to have contact with other people..."

I thought about it, and this was an unexpected question. Although Xiao Heitan accepted Jeluka and me, she did not open the door to the world. The outside world she saw with her squinted eyes was not suitable for her. As far as she is concerned, it is a land of wolves and tigers. Of course, it is impossible for her to contact other people. Even if she is contacted, she will run away.

"How about...picking some children of the same age to get close to her?" Jeluka suggested.

"No, Xiao Heitan's intuition is very sharp. She will definitely notice the companion who does this." I answered in annoyance, grabbing my hair.

If I hadn't worried about my parents' identity not being exposed, I would have taken Xiao Heitan directly back to Rogge Camp and let her get along with Vilas, Xilusi Aikolu and the others. With these kind and gentle girls here, why worry about fighting? Don’t open Xiao Heitan’s heart?

"No, absolutely not. The illusion used is already at its limit. If you have to deceive even friends, can this still be called happiness? This is just false happiness. If you are discovered, you will probably be hurt even more deeply."

"Then what can your Highness do?"

The suggestion was refuted as useless, and with her mouth puffed out, Zeluka stared at me and asked.

"This..." I was speechless for a moment.

False happiness... This unpleasant statement reminds me of the little ghost.

Since I can't accept the outside world, I have no choice but to...

"In the short term, this is the only way to do it."

I murmured in a low voice. From the bottom of my heart, I was extremely unwilling to choose to do this, but I couldn't think of any other way.

"Since we can't create false happiness, and Xiao Heitan is unwilling to contact the outside world, and we can't change her for a while, we have no choice but to give Xiao Heitan [distorted happiness]."

"Twisted happiness?"

Jeluka tilted her head for a moment, then suddenly cast a pitying look, took out a bottle of birth control pills and gave it to me, as if to say, young man, it’s time for you to take your medicine.

"Don't rush to a conclusion yet, Alice, Alice, you should still remember it."

Yes, that idiot ghost who ate your sacred crystal tree.

"I don't know. I don't know anything about the ghost of the ten-thousand-year candidate saint, and I don't want to know."

For some reason, Jeluka suddenly tilted her head angrily. Since you still know that she is a ten thousand year candidate saint, doesn't this mean that you already know her information very well?

"Now I can only temporarily imitate the little ghost's template, and do this..." I whispered in Jeluka's ear.

To put it simply, it is to give Xiao Heitan the awkward character of a little ghost... Uh, no, it is happiness, awkward happiness, forget about the character. If there is one more ghost like this, my life will be over. No.

As long as Xiao Heitan feels that as long as there is me and Jeluka in the world, it is everything and happiness, isn't it enough? There is no fixed definition of happiness, the key is to see what the other person thinks.

"Is this really okay?" Jeluka expressed doubts.

"It doesn't matter, we have learned from the past." I used the wrong words to indicate that the car in front of me was a little ghost.

"But how?"

Jeluka raised the most critical point, yes, what should we do to make Xiao Heitan feel that the two of us are everything, and that everyone else is superfluous, and that as long as he is with us, he is happy.

"Love, just go out and dote on her."

I confidently came up with the phrase "save the world with love". In theory, this is the same as "save the universe with song".

Jeluka looked far away and was speechless.

"But if you do this, what will Little Heitan look like in the future?"

Jeluka is not opposed to this suggestion. Rather, privately, she is extremely willing to do so.

"It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter. Think about it, that idiot ghost has distorted his personality for thousands of years, and now he is gradually accepting Vilas and the others. If it is only for a month or two, the symptoms should be very mild. As long as he takes her with him later Just go back to Rogge Camp.”

"Yes...really?"

Jeluka's expression was a little gloomy, and the contraceptive bottle in her hand was about to be broken.

"Idiot, if you want to come and visit Xiao Heitan, just tell me. Even if it's the end of the world, I will let you meet Xiao Heitan."

I stroked the hair of the lost pornographic maid and said softly.

"His Royal Highness is the idiot. Not only is he a beast who wants the world's *** to get pregnant for him, but he is also a big idiot."

Jeluka lowered her head and muttered angrily, "What an idiot. The person I want to see the most is you, you big idiot."

"..."

Isn't he tired of being pinched by the Beast Duke? By the way, since when has there been such a plot as "impregnating all the women in the world"? Is it from the Duke's Ambition chapter in the Beast Duke series?

No, I seem to be able to remember the titles of books gradually. I can remember the titles of these heavy-flavored H-books that seem to make girls pregnant just by looking at them! !

So, after making a decision, the contents of Xiao Heitan's Observation Diary No. 22 were enriched again, creating this kind of twisted happiness. It was originally impossible for a person, except for contact with his parents, to She also has to come into contact with other things, but Xiao Heitan is different. She is originally afraid of and rejects the outside world. Because of this, it is possible.

As long as I believe that I can give Xiao Heitan all the happiness, and pour this belief into my daily doting on Xiao Heitan, I believe that it is not difficult to achieve the goal. In addition, the elf family in Xiao Heitan According to our observations, the sealing magic circle has the side effect of suppressing emotions, and it seems to be more serious than those elf mages said. To describe this side effect simply, it is to create an iron wall around oneself. Reject the intervention of any strange feelings from the outside world, that is to say, no new feelings will arise.

However, I will not suppress my existing feelings, so luckily, Jeluka and I were both included in this iron wall. It is precisely because of this that I boldly proposed the twisted happiness Manufacturing Plan.

Of course, after this incident, the sealing magic and its side effects must still be eliminated. I don't want to artificially create a second twisted emotion like a little ghost. Although this twisted emotion can satisfy a man's possessive desire, but Compared with this, it is more important to let Xiao Heitan live a normal life.

By the way, I want to sympathize with Ma Daao. He was obviously excluded by Xiao Heitan's emotional iron wall. If you want to blame it, you must blame those elf mages, cough cough.

Therefore, in this emotionally closed environmental container, Xiao Heitan enjoyed the fatherly and motherly love that Jeluka and I devoted all our efforts to, and this love was real. Excluding the reasons for solving the crystal fragments, me and Jeluka also sincerely hopes that little Heitan can live a happy life, and truly loves and loves this little girl.

Xiao Heitan’s Observation Diary No. 25:

The effect is very obvious. Under the pampering of Jeluka and I, Little Heitan has become more and more dependent on us...

Xiao Heitan’s Observation Diary No. 27:

Is it my imagination? During lunch, I accidentally got some food crumbs on the corner of my mouth. Under Ma Dao's envious eyes, Xiao Heitan kindly helped me clean it up and ate the crumbs because he saw his father's embarrassment. It seemed that she smiled for a moment because she felt the warmth and happiness of this action. At that moment, I seemed to see Xiao Heitan's squinted eyes widen a little, and saw the pair of eyes that had been hidden all this time. up beautiful pupils.

Xiao Heitan’s Observation Diary No. 32:

Today is the day to move. With Ma Dao's enthusiastic (?) support, we finally left that simple and dangerous little cave and bought a small house in the civilian residential area of ​​the Demon Fortress. We have wanted to do this for a long time. , although there is no inconvenience in living in a small cave, monsters are infested, and people's hearts are unpredictable, so there is no guarantee that there will not be people with evil intentions.

I am not worried about Jeluka in any aspect. Whether it is her strong strength or the appearance created through illusion, I believe it is very safe. Even the little Heitan, nourished by a good environment, looks more and more adorable. He Lingxiu would easily be targeted by the strange uncles and moved to the Demon Fortress. At least within the jurisdiction of the alliance, not many people would dare to act rashly.

Xiao Heitan seems to attach great importance to the concept of home. It can be seen that she seems quite happy about her new home.

Xiao Heitan’s Observation Diary No. 37:

Today, Ma Daao said that he had a stomachache and was on vacation (Ma Daao burst into tears: It was obviously because you wanted to connect with your daughter that I made such an aggrieved excuse). On a whim, we took Xiao Heitan with us after five long absences. Under the Demonic Fortress of Heaven, pick wild vegetables near the edge of the suburban prairie.

During this period, something worth noting happened.

Xiao Heitan, who was walking beside him, holding a basket in his hand and searching carefully on the grass with his head lowered, suddenly asked in a low voice and timidly.

"Dad and mother...why are they so kind to me..."

At that time, I didn’t know whether she was asking me, or whether she was talking to herself subconsciously, whether she was simply curious about why she was so doted on by her parents, or whether she had something hidden in her heart. Ask out.

None of this is important. What is important is how I should answer. Xiao Heitan's eyes seemed to be slightly tilted to this side, looking at me timidly and seriously through the thin bangs.

This is definitely an opportunity to improve our favorability. You can answer, because Little Black Tan is our only one and the driving force for our survival. In the past five years of missing, under the ruthless whipping and labor of the dwarves who rescued us, we just want to With Xiao Heitan still here, we must go back to reunite with our family, so we persist. Our only hope in the future is to see Xiao Heitan grow up healthily and happily, and get married, until the moment we meet our eyes.

Wait, wait, there are really too many affectionate sentences that can be used to touch people's hearts.

But I couldn't say a word of these words. I don't know whether it was because I couldn't bear to lie to Xiao Heitan anymore, or I was moved by Xiao Heitan's serious look through his bangs.

So, I just squatted down, looked at Xiao Heitan, stretched out my hand to touch her head, and said softly.

Because we want Xiao Heitan to be happy.

Eye to eye, silent.

After a while, Xiao Heitan wiped his eyes, nodded, put down the basket in his hand, and gently buried his thin body in my arms.

The moment I threw myself into my arms, the dazzling look on my face was a contradiction I had never seen before. It was both extremely happy and extremely sad. It seemed that there was as much sadness as there was happiness. It was obvious that they were incompatible emotions, but yet But they grew and became entangled.

I hope this is just my imagination, huh.

Today is the thirty-seventh day to become Xiao Heitan’s parents, and there are still fifty days before God’s birthday...